I’m such a fucking hypocrite… (WARNING: Rant ahead)

What the fuck is my problem?? I get all upset when she goes out to drink with her friends, mainly because we always drink together. I mean, I just don’t want anything bad to happen. Call me over protective, I don’t give a fuck. But the thing is, I go out and have a beer or two with the guys sometimes. I guess the difference is, when I go out with the guys, it’s like a beer or two. Her friends, I know they drink to get drunk usually. Nothing against them, they’re awesome. I don’t know. I guess I’m just being a little bitch about it all. Also, they smoke. I smoke occasionally, but it always bothers me when she does it. Not because I don’t want her to, I suppose it’s jealousy. I mean, I would LOVE it if I was able to come along, but these things are like team dinners and stuff, and I’m not exactly on the women’s team. Maybe I’m just being too sensitive about it all? I don’t know. Maybe if I just talked to her about it all? I’m fine with her taking a shot or two, but I don’t want her getting super high or super wasted without me there. Or maybe I should just let her have her fun? I have no idea. 

If you bothered to read all that, any advice? Send me an ask.